I GOT INTO USF FOR NURSING! I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D =D =D

WOW. this is the FIRST time i've cried out of happiness. MY GOODNESS. I'M SO HAPPY. its harder to get into USF once you declare nursing as a major so i'm not just another one of the 70% accepted. USF has 100-110 spaces for students with a nursing major and they usually have 500 nursing program applicants (the dean of the school of nursing said so at the open house) AND WOWWW. I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY... YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW! I CAN'T STOP SMILING AND TEARING UP AND WOW WOW WOW WOW.

YAY YAY YAY I'M SO HAPPY I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT!!!

OKAY! so i have a list of things i want. but IFFFFF you're actually thinking of getting one of these for me, make sure someone else didn't already get it? haha iono cuz that seems to happen a lot -_-

- i don't mean to be unappreciative, but NO GIFTCARDS, please ><
- "DESSERTS" cookbook at costco by Martha Day
- a big poster of "lunch atop a skyscraper"
-  SD card reader (USB port)
- polaroid camera
- fancy camera (the cheapest good one you can find?)
- the angry little girls purse (a specific one. take a guess)
- see's candy box of NUTS AND CHEWS! (YUM! but not too much or i'll get super fat)
- transformer DVD
- harajuku lovers shirt! 
- urban renewal purse (a specific one)
- a set of water colors (the REAL kind that comes in tubes)
- starbucks mug (that looks like the white starbucks cup for hot drinks)
- lucky brand jeans denim purse (the one that i have and used to use all the time but is getting old)
- ratatouille dvd
- a dehydrater (to make beef jerky and dried fruits!)
- a metallic copper or dark silver purse (AND FLATS)
- scarves, earrings, necklaces, bracelets
- ACCEPTANCE INTO USF NURSING!!

drinking hot water on a cold night feels SO great. i really want that STARBUCKS coffee mug (the white one with the green starbucks sign and the "decaf" etc etc boxes on the side). jess was supposed to get it for ME for HER birthday (LOL... an excuse to spend $8 on a mug).

today was awesome. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STACEYCHEN =]

at like 8 in the morning, my neighbor (from the house next door that my granny takes care of because the owner left to taiwan years ago and rents out every one of his rooms) started ringing our doorbell and since my mom, my sister, my two roommates, and i were all still sleeping, we didn't get the door. and my granny was in the kitchen washing the dishes or doing her usual kitchen things. and the lady was like "I KNOW YOU'RE THERE. I CAN HEAR THE WATER RUNNING IN THE KITCHEN. YOU BETTER OPEN THE DOOR NOW. I KNOW YOU'RE THERE." weirdo.

went to stacey's house THREE TIMES today! stacey was in her PJs... ALL DAY. hahahaha =] annie, andrew, and i brought her cake, balloons, and flowers. hehe but we all had to leave after a while. then i went to visit jess during her lunch. we ate togo's and kept drooling over christmas shortbread cookies at walgreens. then i visited lawrence for a second, went home for a little bit, then went back to stacey's with lawrence, then went home because my dad needed the car to bring jess back to school, then got a ride back to stacey's. teehee so fun. christmas tree application =] can't wait til christmas day! can't wait til my christmas parties!!!! YAYYY so funny. "are you normal?" teehee and hoggy computerness and passing around food and grape seeds and crazy wild little asian girl in van-ness. etc etc etc teehee i had a good day =]

yay cookie and icing press (ALL-IN-ONE) from amazon! except it was expensive. hopefully it'll come soon!

i can't wait o grow up and be rich! i'll have pretty tableware and kitchenware AND ITS GOING TO BE THE FREAKING BEST. and i'm going to have prettily painted walls and pretty paintings and sculptures and flowers etc etc etc all over. i can't wait for my martha-stewart kitchen/livingroom/diningroom/bedroom/HOUSEEEE.

12/04 spice girls concert in SJ
12/23 wang lee hom concert in SF (last year i said that i'm going to see him before i die!)
12/24 jay chou concert in LA

and i'm officially broke. okay, you guys are getting scraps of junk from the garbage for christmas. hah just kidding.

DOLLAR TREE is such a cool place! muahahaha i went there because i wanted to buy cheap air fresheners for my cars cuz my dad's car smells like smoke and my mom's car smells like keri lotion. HAHA and yeah i was walking around and i saw cheap colored plates and napkins! and then i remembered... "PARTY FOR FRIENDS" on monday! so i bought pink, green, and black plates and napkins! VERY COOL. safeway and stuff rarely have colored plates. especially at an inexpensive price. AND THENNN i also got some party favor things for the "party for friends." the total came out to be $13! which means... we earned about $11 from all three "party for friends" together! which isn't too much, but it's good enough! and then i also bought this really cute christmas-tree shaped plate and this HUMONGO christmas gift bag (still have to find something that big to put in it to give someone). hehe i think i'll go there to buy club stuff from now on (other than food).  OH YEAH. i also FINALLY bought a cooling rack! cooling racks are always so expensive but now i got TWO for a dollar total! hehehehe

these past few days have been FUN! the H&M opening was so fun! too bad annie couldn't stay (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!) and carole couldn't go. stacey and i were so excited that we sort of forgot how to shop at first. we were like "AHHH don't know how//where to start!" but then after like... 2 minutes, we started going crazy and grabbing like... everything. or at least i did. LOL then we waited in line for the fitting room for a REALLY long time. we didn't count but i'm pretty sure it was more than 45 minutes. CRAZY but very very cool. i ended up buying like... 2/3 of the stuff i tried on. except for some reason, they all fit perfectly at the store but were all too big at home. so i have to exchange most of my stuff for size S. I GOT TWO SWEATER VESTS! hahahahahaha fun fun. and my favorite is that one semi-cow-neck sweater that was originally $25 but was 50% off so it was $12.50! YAYYY. but yeah. i'll have to go exchange the sizes. i'll go on monday after school. i'll have my dad's car ;]

LOL i was so tired from H&M shopping that i couldn't totally enjoy UO. but then we bought an ice cream cake from ben&jerry's (cuz earlier that day, annie said she never tried an ice cream cake) and we met up again at annie's house... and ate the very very very sweet cake. hahahaha fun. silly girls.

i got my homecoming picture copies in the mail today and they look EXACTLY like the originals. it's so cool cuz in the past, the color of the copies have been off but this time, they're perfect! yay now i can just pass out my picture (with fat arms) to everyone! =]

haha and for the whole day yesterday, i was trying to decide if i should go to priyal's birthday or corn maze... and i ended up going to neither of them! haha instead, i brought my granny to walmart and places and then caught up on my missed grey's anatomy and private practice. hahaha and then i spent like.. an hour on my TIGER watercolor project and it's actually turning out nicely! despite my bad bad bad ugly messed up start. hehe i ended up having a lot of fun by myself at home.

anyways i have to go get ready for high school musical on ice! muahahaha not too excited anymore though. but yay!

DON'T FREAKING SPEAK WHEN YOU DON'T FREAKING NEED TO. those little sentences you add just for the heck of it only enhance your image as a BUTT (i'm not going to use dirty words).

my freaking roommate lady is freaking dumb and should be freaking slapped.

for the week of the homecoming dance, i was starving myself like crazy so i could wear my dress without having my tummy bulge out like crazy. by wednesday night, after four days of completely starving myself and feeling so hungry and yuck, i tried on my dress again... and the speed of my weight-loss just wasn't fast enough. i would NOT, no matter how much i starved myself in that one week, be able to hide my stomach in that dress by saturday. if i starved myself like that for two weeks, i would have been able to fit, but there was just really no time anymore so i decided not to keep dieting that way. it's painful for me... and completely pointless if i still won't be able to wear the dress within a few days. she saw me eating on wednesday night and she was like "EMILY WHY ARE YOU EATING!?" and i said "i'm hungry. i know i won't be able to fit into my dress no matter how much i diet this week. so there's no point in starving myself like that. and i'm hungry." and she said "WHAT? JUST TWO MORE DAYS AND YOU CAN'T EVEN GO THROUGH WITH IT!? HAH HAH HAH" and she laughed in one of those "hah you suck" ways. WHAT THE FREAKING HELL. she said it as if she were criticizing my strength and determination... calling me weak for eating and "giving up" on my diet. 1. it is NONE of her freaking business. 2. STARVING myself for two more days will NOT make that much of a difference. or at least not enough. 3. WHO IN THE WORLD encourages someone else to starve herself for a week! JUST to fit into a dress. SHE'S FREAKING INSANE. so... after being pissed for a bit, i let it go.

just like 30 minutes ago, my mom was leaving for work (she came home during her break time) and she kept asking me where my grandma was and i said "i don't know!" in what i guess is a kind of rude tone... i just woke up from my nap in a really cranky way cuz in the middle of my nap, my grandma came into my room to talk on the phone (or rather... to scream into the phone since she thinks that just because she can't hear other people, other people can't hear her). and my mom was kinda yelling at me saying "ni wang le ni shi shei" (you've forgotten who you are) and mumbling some other stuff. my roommate lady was sitting at the dinner table and eating... and listening to my mom yell at me. and... my face was really hot (i guess a little sunburned) from AIDS walk today so i went in the fridge and got out some NONFAT ice cream that my mom brought home for me earlier from costco. so i took it out and started eating it cuz i was hot and bummed out for being yelled at. so i sat there at the dinner table next to my roommate lady and YOU'D THINK that she'd say some encouraging words or SOMETHING since she just saw me getting yelled at. but NO. she says "EMILY. ice cream is VERY fattening. are you sure you want to eat that?" EXCUSE ME?! I'LL EAT WHAT A FREAKING WANT TO EAT, thank you very much. and that pissed me off like FREAKING CRAZY since i was already in a bad mood from getting yelled at. i do NOT need someone else making me feel worse by telling me what i should not eat.

and SHE is the one that's been constantly telling me over the past 2-3 years that i'm NOT fat. THEN WHY IS SHE FREAKING TRYING TO CONTROL MY EATING HABITS!?

my diet and eating habits are NONE of her freaking business.

anyways, on a lightner note... AIDS walk wasn't too bad today except for that like... 3 minutes i was left to alone and had to watch them keep walking without even looking back at me. what's sad is that ANDREW, not lawrence, was the first to turn around and let me catch up. nice. but yeah. overall the walk was okay. tiring, but nice to know we walked so much.

YES! i'm so proud of myself. i came home today and i didn't take a nap. i just went straight to doing homework because i knew that i had A LOT. so i worked nonstop from like 2:40 to 11:40! and i finished reading notes, forensics, english crap, etc etc ALL BY MYSELF. with no help! except for a teeny bit of help for the english questions and reading notes. but i definitely used my brain more today than i usually do. WOOHOO.

that was a SERIOUS waste of time. i hate oil pastels! gr.
top is mine, bottom is the artist dude's.

AE interview was cancelled today. poo

i promised to lose 8 lbs in 16 days. or by the time stacey AND andrew are back.
6 more lbs to lose. in 12 more days. that's 1 lb. every two days. i can hecka do that.

today rocked. teehee two manly girls pushing a crazy heavy piano all around the house like thieves while old granny sleeps through all the noise in the living room. i love my mom. she's the best. and i love how we've gotten so much closer this past year. just cuz i started getting a better temper. she's my best friend <3

school starts in less than a month. i'm sick of that place. i don't want to go back. i'm sick of everyone. i don't want to see people. no offense... to everyone. not like anyone reads this anyways. but yeah. i guess senior should be more fun. and college will rock.

i'm ugly. i don't like my eyes and my nose. can't wait til loveboat next year. i'll get new prettier glasses then too. since my stinking gan yien zhen doesn't let me wear contacts much anymore T_T but yeah. loveboat will be awesome!

i need money. well... WE need money.